All Through the Night

Yesterday, Jon found this picture of my sisters and I with my Mom.

 

 

I think that it was taken on a Christmas morning before any of us sisters were married (our brother was on his mission).  I love this picture so much.  I'm pretty sure that we were all dying of laughter, as usual.  It's obvious, at least, that my Mom was laughing so hard that she didn't even have the strength to hold her head up! :)  I wouldn't doubt that we were laughing at the fact that we were all trying to squish (unsuccessfully) on a tiny sofa!

 

Since seeing this picture, I can't stop thinking about my Mom and how much I miss her!  I just can't believe that I can't see her (in this life) ever again.  I really miss the laughs that we would all have together.  We all suffer from the "uncontrollable laughter syndrome" (particularly when laughing is deemed extrememly innapropriate...like in the Temple!!).

 

Today was a long day.  Jon's going back to school (he wants to be a school administrator...and he'll be great at it!).  I would usually call my Mom on long days and she would never fail to make me laugh and help me to realize that the day would eventually end. :) 

 

Anyway, I was feeling a little sad today.  I decided to read a poem that Jon wrote a day or so after my Mom had died.  This poem is incredibly amazing.  I remember reading it for the first time and I couldn't stop crying.  Even as I read it today, I couldn't prevent the tears from falling.  Jon is very giften and has such a beautiful way with words.  When I read this poem, I truly feel as if my Mom is talking.

 

 

all through the night

(in memorium -- susan dawn turley)

 

i felt you driving here

anxious and wishing

were feelings we shared

miles encroach between

my daughters fair

my will towards you

my love imbue

safety ensue

i prayed for you

--all through the night

 

i hold my children near

since from the first time

when they became mine

mnutes encroach between

my children dear

eternity

felicity

and lovingly

you prayed for me

--into the night

 

in the room with my love

my body broken

my heart molded

by my faithful

--husband.

you hold my tender hand

akin to the day we wed

always to be

your Sweetie

though the day long

and your grief strong

i've always loved you

and will continue to love you

--all through the night

 

this life was the time

to prepare to meet

--those who blessed my life

--those whose lives i've blessed

a time that i so

cherished...

relished...

 

night will give way to dawn

 

i have left this frail existence

i have left my mortal by

i shall await with eager presence

in the royal courts on high

 

neigher weep nor beseech

my suff'ring now gone

my love now prolong

i am within your reach

live for each day

happy alway

as mem'ries sway

think me this way

i will be there

--all through your night

 

 

jonathan over

1 may 2013